My sewing room is my happy place. No matter what kind of mood I’m in, when I walk through that door my mood instantly lifts and I’m just happy. I don’t even have to do anything in there – sometimes I just sit, stare at fabric and think. It’s the brightest room in the house, it’s full of sunshine and fabric and I love it.
Generally, I work to keep this blog a happy place too. I mean, who wants to visit and read a mood killing, depressing post? I wouldn’t. Occasionally though, topics need to be discussed that aren’t all sunshine and roses.
While I don’t think this post is actually a mood killer, it does come from a place of sadness. It has to, because the sadness I feel is the inspiration for this mini quilt.
Lately, there have been so many brazen acts of cruelty and hatred happening in our world. So much. One right after the other. Seems I can barely catch my breath from hearing of one, when something else happens. And last week, when I heard about the police shootings in Dallas I sat down and just cried. How much more will there be?
After the massacre in Orlando, it felt good to be able to donate a quilt to Quilts for Pulse. It was my way of dealing with the sadness I felt at so much human loss and suffering. Such a small gesture, but those small gestures add up and an entire community and city will know how much love is still in this world.
Remembering that feeling, I decided to try to use quilting as therapy once more to work through all this sadness I feel.
Those white scraps I talked about Wednesday? This is what they look like now.
I love, love, LOVE the way this came together. The background is exactly what I hoped it would be. It is light, and full of hope for the future, and represents me – how I usually feel about my life and those around me.
I have been wanting to make a neutral colored quilt for a really long time and now I know when I make it that it will look exactly as I hoped it would. So I have started cutting many more squares for a much larger quilt.
The appliqued tear drop symbolizes the deep sadness I feel. So much sadness I can barely contain it. There are days that I’m not successful and the sadness comes pouring out in the form of tears. I didn’t want to cover the quilt with lots of tear drops; this one large shape represents all the tears that I have cried.
When I initially quilted this piece, I left the tear unquilted. But it just didn’t feel right. It stood out too much…it practically screamed ‘look at me’.
Then I realized, even though I feel this deep sadness, underneath is optimism – I still have hope for the future. And that hope must shine through my tears. That’s when I added quilted lines on top of the tear drop, to symbolize the hope that lay underneath and that it will work its way back and conquer all the sadness.
Now when I look at this piece, it doesn’t scream at me. It speaks gently, and helps me see that yes, there will be dark days but there is also hope for something better.
This quilt soothes my soul and I’m so glad I was able to make it as I envisioned it.
If you’re still here, thanks for reading through to the end and allowing me to share a deeper piece of myself. This quilt really has served as therapy for me, and I am happy to share it and its’ story with you.
Have you ever made a quilt that has helped you through a rough period of your life?